One man reaching..

Tonight when making dinner for the kids and myself I realized how much food equals 1/2 a cup, again. I have been so regimented with my food intake I never realized I was eating less for each meal then I was told I could, also not eating as many meals as instructed to. I have been so focused on losing weight I have been scared of my food intake. It is not like I am starving myself because I do not feel hungry except when I have not eaten for some time(not planned). It is more of the mental side of things that I have to watch for. When I see something I would have eaten before and crave it, that is what scares me. In 3 and a half weeks I am going to be allowed to eat any food so I have little time to get over the cravings and buckle down on what I will be eating to continue losing weight. I think it is all going to be about structure. Structuring my meals the day before and making sure everything I need is at my disposal if not prepping the food prior so I can eat on the fly or have a nice meal without spending 30 mins to an hour that night fixing it. I will start working on that stuff now and we will see.

On another note I am feeling better about my self but I'm still finding myself frustrated with the people around me for no good reason. As I have been rude and nasty when I should not be. I am sorry to those I have been short with, Sorry baby.

Thats it for now.

The house is clean except the utility room. I was able to play PS3 tonight because everything was done! Yeah for me! But really the house is clean and organized and it feels nice.

Diet update: So the next stage of the diet has progressed and I was able to cook and eat chili tonight. Having beef and beans and vegetables back in the diet have made life easier but now I have to be conscious of my protein intake due to the fact I am not having 3 shakes a day to supplement my needed 60 grams a day. The problem now is I do not think I am eating enough. I know I am not making my 5 to 6 meals a day they are asking from me.

As for the meds: I am now also taking a calcium supplement due to the fact I am losing weight so quickly. It will only last 6 months and then I was also told I only have to take my Prilosac for one last month then I can D/C it. That in itself is a huge thing because that means the acid will not be ripping up my eshopgus anymore. Hopefully like my PCP told me that the surgery should also be a big solution for my Barrettes eshopgus.

Weight: I am now down 42 pounds since surgery and 56 pounds since April and I am going to continue cadio tomorrow but I am also going to add in the weights. It is going to suck but I will enjoy the health benefits so much.

So on to the 3rd step of the diet. I get to add ground beef, veggies and cheese. I am still sick but I was able to get our bedroom completely cleaned and organized. So I do feel as if I was productive tonight. So I have dropped 54 lbs total and 40 since surgery but I do not believe I am eating enough. I am only eating two meals and not three in combination with my protein shakes. I have tried to stay away from eating real food though because it is hard to take the allotted time when playing with the kids. I will explain more tomorrrow. Night.

So we have done a bunch of stuff over the last few days and I haven't posted because I feel it would be stupid to have a bunch of small post.

Saturday: We took the kids to Harvest fest and it was so much easier to participate in the events with my kids. Keeping up with them seemed so simple compared to the way it was before the start of my weight loss. What was really nice was the fact that I never seemed to get hot and start sweating which is something that started happening a lot prior to the surgery.

Sunday: We had a family dinner for my father in law's birthday at his house and I enjoyed the whole time. I really felt much better about myself which helps me in my dealings with the people around me.

Monday: It was park time and on the way home it was fun because playing with the kids is soooo much easier.

Tuesday: I had a job interview today and I felt much less self conscious then I did during an interview back in August. I felt confident that I was being taken more serious because I am 50 pounds lighter then I was six months ago. I never got sweaty or even felt like I had to worry about it. Another high point to today was that I donated clothes that are now to big for me. Yippie!!!!!!!!!

I guess a lot of the moments I have experienced so far in my life since surgery that are easier are moment surround by family, and since the most important thing in my life is my family and friends I have to say it was completely worth the surgery.

Follow up appointment Friday!!!!

So I am one month out of surgery today and I am down 34 pounds from arrival home. My wife took the first post op picture of my today and I attached it to the blog so you can just imagine my size with 34 pounds extra on me. Today was the wife's and my date day since I am unemployed and it went well. We did not do much productive but got some errands done. Thats about it for me just a boring day. Tomorrow is the harvest fest. Should be fun.