One man reaching..

Tonight when making dinner for the kids and myself I realized how much food equals 1/2 a cup, again. I have been so regimented with my food intake I never realized I was eating less for each meal then I was told I could, also not eating as many meals as instructed to. I have been so focused on losing weight I have been scared of my food intake. It is not like I am starving myself because I do not feel hungry except when I have not eaten for some time(not planned). It is more of the mental side of things that I have to watch for. When I see something I would have eaten before and crave it, that is what scares me. In 3 and a half weeks I am going to be allowed to eat any food so I have little time to get over the cravings and buckle down on what I will be eating to continue losing weight. I think it is all going to be about structure. Structuring my meals the day before and making sure everything I need is at my disposal if not prepping the food prior so I can eat on the fly or have a nice meal without spending 30 mins to an hour that night fixing it. I will start working on that stuff now and we will see.

On another note I am feeling better about my self but I'm still finding myself frustrated with the people around me for no good reason. As I have been rude and nasty when I should not be. I am sorry to those I have been short with, Sorry baby.

Thats it for now.