One man reaching..

First off thanks Kara for the PR. I love you baby.

Now I am going to preface this with I do not try to make excuses for what I did when I was younger (I stopped that many years ago). I know that if I made different decisions in my life I would not have done some of the things I did.

And now for my rant.

Well in true Mom fashion she lost it yesterday and is on her way to screwing up her life in Cali. For the last week she has been telling my sisters and myself that she needs recognition and has stated in so many words that anything that had happened since my father died was our own fault. Yes I made some bad decisions and should have done different things in my life but if she was around and not pushing me away and not having faulty priorities, then my life would have been different. But looking at it from a different perspective; I am so happy that I led the life I have because if she did not do the shit she did then I would not be married to Kara and not have a great life with 2 beautiful sons. My family puts the fun in dysfunctional!

Now for something on the lighter side.

I added a weight tracker to the bottom of the blog so you can follow my weight loss, since at this time the blog kind of revolves around how my life is changing and how my feeling, perceptions and experiences are effected through the weight loss. (Suggestion from Kris).

I am finding myself much more motivated to do more things. It is because I have more energy due to the fact I am not carting around the extra weight. Looking back I am so happy I made the decision to have the surgery. The changes so far have been immense! I remember a few months ago I was telling my neighbor how nervous I was about the surgery and he was telling me I was going to be fine. Even the day of the surgery I was so nervous the anesthesiologist asked me if I was excited for the future and I told him I hadn't thought of it because I was so scared of the surgery. I was very lucky also because my wife (Kara) is an Operating nurse at Highland hospital and was able to pick the surgical team (Thanks Fred, Kris and Maria) Plus I was even allowed to keep my underware; VIP Baby! (lol). I have to say I am glad I wasn't so paralyzed by fear I did not have the surgery. If I knew how good I would have felt just a month and a half out, I would never have been scared. Now today I was speaking to my neighbor, who is scheduled for Oct 8th, and he is getting nervous. I told him he would be fine as he told me but I wish people who are nervous about this surgery knew how good they would feel afterwards. I'm just a month and a half out and there has been such a change, it is enhancing my wife's, my children's and my life.