One man reaching..

So today was a good day all around. But I am tiredm hopefully I can continue this tomorrow morning.

Night.

So as I am getting ready for bed tonight and knowing I have to drive home tomorrow morning I am thinking to myself where "home" is. I know that home is where you want it to be. With my boys and wife squared is where I call home. It could be our house or where ever we are, as long as I am with them I am home. Now I need to add that I know that I am feeling nostalgic since we saw friends that we dearly miss. But maybe, just maybe, where we want our home to be is here. I do miss it very much but then I think of who and what we would miss back in NY. We will see where life takes us. Also just a heads up, last ultrasound looks good. Progressing well. Keep them in your prayers please.

Until tomorrow or the next day.
Night

Tonight I was thinking and I am going to write it out.

I want to be the father my father was. I want to be the coach of my children's sports teams, I want to help them with their home work, I want to provide for them and make sure I can give them everything they need. I want to teach them how to be good people, I want to see them off on their first day of school. I want to teach them to shave and help them fill out their college applications. I want to give them advise they will laugh at and years later look back and say, dad was right. I want to see them graduate and get married. I want to be called grandpa by my grandchildren and spoil them rotten.

I want to celebrate my anniversaries, birthday's and special events with Kara. Travel to fun filled family vacations where are children call us lame but always have fun. I want to grow old with her and sit on our porch and talk about how the old times were better. I want to go shopping for grocery's and sit around and watch tv together. I want to provide for her and make her happy.

I want to be proud of my family we have created and raised and have them be proud of me. I want to be a positive force in all the lives of my loved ones.

And that is why I have made the changes I have and I am working on being the best father and husband I can be.

So Bittner and I are went to the gym. Yeah I haven't been there in a while but now since I am dropping more weight without trying I have decided that if my body wants to lose more fat then I need to build the muscle. Now I am not trying to be one of those annoying people who would complain that they are losing weight but I am worried about it to a point. I am getting past where I want to be but I want to eat healthy still and it seems when I have been doing that I keep losing weight. To be honest I have been eating unhealthy food of late to curb the weigh loss and I keep dropping. I don't want to eat more because I am eating until I am full and eat 3 meals and 3 snacks a day. Now I am putting down about 1400 calories when I am eating health and many more when I have been eating like crap. That is the normal caloric intake for a gastric bypass post op patient. So time to get to the gym every other day. Now I know I have said this before but I am going to pull it off. But I am tired so I will post tomorrow about coopers birthday party today.

Until tomorrow,
night