One man reaching..

So stress comes in many forms, and I have some now. Life throws you curve balls and it is how you deal with it that defines you in my opinion. When crisis hits I know I do well but it is dealing with the mundane I am always trying to work on, it isn't that I am bad at it, I call it an area on concentration because i know I can get distracted. Know I know I am a very blessed person, I have two beautiful sons, a beautiful wife, goods friends and family, a job I love and an awesome dog. So where the stress comes from is i always want to be the best I can be. I want to be the best father, the best husband, the best friend, the best employee and Jackson's best friend that I can be. One of my weaknesses is I try to do so much because I put a large amount of pressure on myself. I need to check myself and give myself enough time to be a quality person in all aspects of my life. I want to and know I can be a quality contributor in every aspect of my life. I guess writing this made me realize this is my New Years resolution. I also am going to make sure to utilize the gym as one of my fun stress relievers and time for myself.


A new sign of success: Rolls due to loose skin sinking in when I lay and sit. It is uncomfortable but in a sadistic way it makes me feel good because it is a sign of how well I am doing. Now I do not like the way it looks but I am now so much healthier then I have been in so long so I am happy about it.

So last night due to the holidays and some of what I have been eating I decided to make a food log. I am tracking my meals, my snacks, my fruit and vegetable intake, my med intake and my fluid intake. I wanted to do this so I can track my nutritional intake. Also it will hopefully be a motivator for me to eat healthy and make me answer to myself when I think about eating something or after I eat something. Hopefully it works like I want it to.

Until Tomorrow,
Night